I don’t even know what to do right now. What to say, what to think, how to feel. All I feel is like scum. I feel like the lowest of the low because of what I’ve done. I’ve let you down. I feel like I have a hole in my heart because of how empty this has made me feel. I feel like this is it. That I couldn’t possibly hurt you or do anything worse. But I let you down. I made my girlfriend resent the sound of my voice, and the sight of my face. All I want to do is make it better. I need to make it better but I don’t know how.